Fuel

It is so interesting how different emotions can target or attack certain aspects of your being. Even crazier is how they affect people differently. When people are sad, some binge, some starve and some remain the same. The same goes for stress.

Anger and frustration can also take a toll on your body. Coming home from a horrible day at work, I found myself having two different emotions running through me. It was weird.  I wanted to run as fast as I could and beat the shit out of my training today. I felt like I could conquer anything. But at the same time, my anger and the day was so upsetting, I just wanted to give up. I tend to get in pessimistic moods when multiple things don't go my way. I feel like the world is against me.

 Knowing that I couldn't let the day get the best of me, I went to the gym. I had a wonderful workout, and burned more calories in my cardio than I have done lately. I hit my strides harder, I rocked out to my music a little bit more. I made it happen. Let your emotion be the fuel for your release. Give yourself time to detox everything that is going on -reflect on the good and release the bad. While I was still frustrated after my workout, I let it out. I released the stress.

It also really helped that I had an amazing time with my friend Jade tonight. It is important to surround yourself with people that raise you up. We laughed and joked about my frustration...and had a little retail therapy. These emotions are definitely necessary to balance out the negativity that overcomes you. Surround yourself with good people.

Before I started my workout today, I got a chance to talk to a girl in the locker room who just finished her workout. She was looking in the mirror, examining her defined stomach muscles. I couldn't help but think she was a little too tan...not going to lie...so, I asked her if she was doing a show. While she didn't look to be ready in my eyes, she looked really great. The girl explained she was doing the Rocky this weekend and had lost 85 pounds throughout her training. She was doing it on her own-no help from anyone. What drive and inspiration! I wish I could be as strong as her. WOW, kill it girl.

Tomorrow is another learning day with Rob and I can't wait! I tend to get nervous right before...but immediately am so excited as soon as I leave. Additionally, I am excited to report that I had the accomplishment yesterday to get the farthest I have run without stopping. I don't know what helped me, whether it was the rhythm of the song playing on repeat or my praying...but I ran a half-mile before stopping once. While that doesn't sound like an achievement...I previously couldn't go two minutes without stopping. I suck at running. And breathing. Yep, you heard it here first, folks. I made it six minutes and twenty-nine seconds. I think I am ready for a marathon now! Haha, yeah right.

But I am getting stronger.


LD