Apparently, my life is perfect...or so I hear.

Wow. I just got off the phone with a student who told me everything fell into place for me with college and worked out because my life was perfect. I was shocked. Yes, I hold myself together, but my life is far from perfect. I responded with a very simple thought. There are two ways you can look at things; you can continue to find and believe every excuse or negative thought about why you can't...or you can think harder about why it will and be worth it to achieve. I continued to tell him about how much I understood exactly the situation he is in. I understand that in every example he can see...school seems impossible. However, it is like that with anything. Easily, I can list ten reasons why I may not be successful at this fitness competition:

1. I love to eat food- good food at that.
2. And wine. LOVE WINE.
3.  I never have lifted extensively in my life
4. I am short and have a big booty and thighs (Thanks Mom! )
5. I don't think I can run more than a mile (I also didn't think I could run more than two minutes without stopping).
6. I have friends that are not supportive or try and pressure me to derail
7. I compare myself to such great aspirations and freak myself out thinking how to achieve their level
8. It's going to get too hard
9. It takes too much of my time
10. It's not always fun

Oh...and the best one...

11. I have seen other people fail before (including me!)

But you know what, OH FUCKING WELL. I can do this shit. I can. I know I can. At times it is going to suck. Yeah, I really want to eat those damn Salted Caramel Pretzel Bars I made yesterday. And yes, I miss my Starbucks and wine...but I am stronger than that. I can come up with more reasons than not about why I can't do it, but I am going to make them reasons why I can.

1. The food isn't that bad, you get immune. But yeah, still sucks, but then again "normal life" isn't always perfect either. There are still going to be things that suck, so why not get stronger and sexier and just deal with it!
2. I still miss wine, not going to lie. April 12th baby!
3. I have learned how to lift and my trainer is motivating and a great teacher (and he says with most things I have perfect form!). I also have some great friends that teach me more and more everyday. Take that shit!
4. I am still short, but hey...I have to wear heels anyway! Plus, there are typically less girls in that class anyway! Better odds! And I will just work my booty and thighs that much harder!
5. I haven't tried to run more than a mile...but we all know what happened when I tried to run more than two minutes :)
6. Those friends suck. Yes, you know who you are. You SUCK. I got this...
7. I will be on their level. Jessica Wood, I am coming for you!
8. If it wasn't hard, it wouldn't be worth it...and everybody would do it. It is hard but I am stronger!
9. Time is going to pass anyway, why not use it to make a difference. I'm almost half way done!
10. Yep, there are much funner things to do with my time, but again end result is the most rewarding

and

11. I control my ability to follow through...no one else's story dictates or compares to my outcome.

People only get a little glimpse of my life. It is far from perfect. There are things I would desperately want to change...or get very discouraged about because I am unhappy with at times. My close friends know I cry and am sad far more than I should be. But you know what, it makes me stronger. I overcome it. I put on a brave face and keep on, keeping on! FUCK YEAH.

I got this. 

LD