Sometimes you just have to let it go...

Sometimes you just have to let it go. No matter what it is, let it go. This is a lesson I have learned over and over this week. I can't let things get the best of me. Both in my personal, professional and fitness life, I have had some challenging situations present themselves this week.

First off, I was frustrated about not losing weight. I have been kicking my tail. Yes, there may be times that I am not pushing my hardest, or not fulling realizing my potential...but I am working hard. I can take all the steps I need to take, and that is it. So, that is what I did. I talked with Rob and asked for a new diet. While it wasn't what I wanted to do, it is what I needed to do. Stop stressing and just move forward. Of course, the next day I dropped again to 123.8 from 125. I guess I lose all my weight on Fridays. Happens every time...another way God likes to show me who is boss. On the plus side, I do not have to start that diet. Rob didn't really want me to change it, because it would only make cutting weight harder towards the end.

I have also learned that sometimes you just can't have what you want. There are two things that I really want in my life right now. Really bad. While both will remain nameless, one could come to be (although I would have to go out of my comfort zone for it)...and the other is pretty far out of sight, never to be realized. Being in sales, I feel I can change anything. I can fix anything...I can make it go my way. But apparently, life isn't like sales. You can't just always work things out to make it right. But I try and I try hard. I look into things that maybe I shouldn't...and I over-think and persuade myself into thinking it will work out. I need to stop. I need to focus on understanding reality.

While these things would be amazing (and my weight loss too)-and a blessing to every party involved...I need to have them fall into my life willingly. Have it be ready to happen. How do I do that? Seriously, it is something that I challenge myself to understand everyday. I need to worry less and trust more. Worrying is like praying for the wrong thing to happen. It is showing no belief of who and what you are; what you are capable of.  I have felt for so long that God has hated me and purposely tries to prevent good things from my life. Seriously. You have probably heard me say that-several times. There are times that I seriously still think that. While I still have faith, I continuously struggle with that. I am afraid. I panic. I don't want to miss out.

Ok, enough about that...just a little personal thought from my mind today.

That is all. But I am at 123.8 bitches!

LD